I’m SICK. *crying*

Lovies!

I know I’ve been a bit M.I.A as of late, but that’s because I’ve been terribly ill! To be honest, I’m not sure what I’ve got… but my ears, eyes, and throat ache. I can’t swallow. It hurts to blink. AND, it feels like balloons are popping in my ear drum. What gives??

Unfortunately, due to my illness, production was halted on “To Kill A Cat Burglar”… for two weeks! I could cry. And I have been. For two weeks. Thankfully, my cast and crew have been so understanding and I’ve received lovely gift baskets from Ripley, the director, and Dash, my ever-dashing co-star!

(*blushing*). Look at these cute My Little Thing Pink Vintage Flower Earrings Dash put in a basket for me along with tangerines, lemon ginger tea, homemade chicken noodle soup, and a dvd of “Some Like It Hot”, one of my favorite films of all time! I suspect he might know me just a little. But don’t worry dolls, I won’t get too excited or involved… ours is a business relationship and it’ll stay that way! (Although this gift basket is waaay too cute. I can’t even tell you all that’s in here. Can’t lie. I’m swooning!)

Despite feeling like crap, there is an upside to being under the weather: slowing down! I feel like I haven’t taken a breather since my last escapade at CAVE (which we dare not speak of … I’ve blocked the memory out of my mind). I’ve caught up on all my reading, memorized all of my lines (hopefully the writers won’t be making any major changes), and best of all- caught up with all of my friends. Sometimes I forget that I’m not alone out here in Hollywood. I do know some great people who love and care about me. Farrah came by with a pink Epson Salt bubble bath, Saige whipped up a few icky tasting tonics that are supposed to be flushing out my system, and like many of you, I FINALLY found out why Aristotle got arrested! Wow, is all I can say. I’m going to send the lawyer from the studio over as a favor, and hopefully he can work something out.

Till next time loves… I’ll be here blowing my nose and soaking in this hot tub!

xx

The Life of a Celebrity...

Let’s get something straight dolls… the life of a celebrity is a tough road to navigate, as we are always in the public eye and subject to mass critiques on a daily basis. One drink at the bar at CAVE and all of a sudden you’re labeled a lush. A few jewelry purchases and you’re accused of being a shopaholic (I don’t know that I have a huge problem with that moniker though… check out this gorgeous GoldTone Necklace I’m wearing in one of the love scenes with Dash. *swoon*). I, however, am no bon vivant or attention-seeking “It” girl… I am a serious actress and I demand to be respected as such! As you all well know, we’ve finally started shooting “To Catch a Cat Burglar” and let me tell you- this has been one of the most grueling, yet rewarding, experiences of my entire life. It has been so tough- I’ve been doing all of my own stunts, singing (you heard right! I’m singing), and learning about the inner life of felines… they’re very intelligent. Dare I say that I smell a shiny gold statue in my future? Perhaps.

I’m also sure that you’ve heard all the more recent rumors that I was the one who leaked Kip’s “tapes” to the press. He’s simply incorrigible! I can’t believe that after he ruthlessly called the paps on me, he now has the NERVE to insinuate that I would waste any of my precious time on anything Kip Deshler related. Puh-lease! Like I would stoop that low. Doesn’t he know that I actually have a career? Oh wait… he doesn’t know what a real career looks like. Well… if, IF, I had released those tapes, I can’t say that he didn’t deserve it. Dear fans, honestly IF I had done such a thing, I do hope that you wouldn’t crucify me for it. We all make mistakes… even celebrities. And sometimes, the ends justify the means. You reap what you sow. Karma is a… etc. Le sigh. Oh well. But I sure would’ve loved to have seen the look on his face when he found out that the paps got a hold of his precious tapes. Enough harping… I’ve got a combat lesson to go to. Then practice at the shooting range… yippee!

Wait, I almost forgot… Aristotle got ARRESTED??? Someone bbm me.

I've Turned a New Leaf....and Gone GREEN!

Dolls!

It is official… In case you haven’t already noticed, Meadow Stevens has turned over a new leaf. No more feeling sorry for myself and indulging in that extra glass of wine at CAVE or crying over the paparrazzi’s invasion of my privacy. Gone are the days where I would mourn friendships that have gone sour (Though I still can’t believe you would side with you-know-who over me, Farrah!) No longer will I lash out at ex-boyfriends thru the press or on social networking sites, however, I still might have a thing or two to say about a girlfriend of the ex-boyfriend in question, simply because she is a nasty person!. Pause. I won’t do that. Instead, I’ll take a deep breath, count to ten, and focus my energy on the positive. Sigh.

We’ve finally cast a leading man for my film “To Catch a Cat Burglar”, and even though it’s not Rico, who is appearing in a cameo role, Dash (that’s his name), my new co-star, is still pretty dashing! lol. Shooting starts in a few weeks and I’m soooo excited. I feel confident that this role will propel me to the next level in my career and I am most certainly ready to take off. Saige and I have been spending even more time together as she continues to counsel me through my “issues”, and helps me to “center” myself as I prepare for the role and the next phase of my life. Of course, she keeps trying to get me to go “Green” and I’m really trying… but, not bathing and wearing filthy Birkenstocks don’t really go with the whole “America’s Sweetheart” vibe I have.

Yet, it turns out that Dash is also really into helping the environment… and he says I CAN relate to the whole green thing in my own way, because I like saving abused puppies and kittens. You know, recycling them..

Further, I was the one who encouraged Ridley (the director) to cast Dash, so in appreciation (and knowing my fondness for jewels), Dash gave me this stunning Nugaard Designs Gem Brass Cuff, made of recycled gold! Not only is it beautiful, but it’s technically “Green”… right, Saige??

Good Karma...Happy Meadow!

My dear friend and Feng Shui expert, Saige Harmony, is always on me about maintaining my “karmic” power. These days, I’m sooo focused on keeping myself positive, and weeding out the bad vibes. I know I know… I was a tad ticked off when someone called the paps on me the other week and I might have engaged in a little “twitter fight” earlier with a certain wanna-be singer/wacktress/fashionista. But I choose to focus on the positive and as of late, have kept busy hanging out with true friends (I *heart* you too Farrah!) Dita Von Teese was so amazing, btw! I’ve also been sitting in during casting calls for my latest flicks. We were looking for an unknown actor to play my leading man and today we’re doing screen tests. THIS is one of the many reasons that I adore my job

I heard through the grapevine that my ex, Kip, was planning on showing up to auditions even though he’s only a “reality tv” actor, and not an experienced thespian, like myself. Unfortunately, he never showed up because somebody leaked recordings of him performing songs from his childhood to the press! What. A. Shame. I wonder who would have done such a thing. His karma must be terrible. I do hope that Saige is helping him re-align his chakras and etcetera. I know he could use the help!

But back to Saige, check out this gorgeous Feather Charm Necklace by Armani Exchange that she gave me after the whole paparazzi debacle! It’s gorgeous and natural, like Saige, though I must admit I was surprised that she gave me a piece of jewelry that she didn’t actually make with her own hands… that might be a first for her! Saige told me that the feather would bring more elements of “whimsy” into my life (which is important since she often says that I’m waaay too serious) and the “love” charm will channel into the universe and return the feeling back to me in unexpected ways. Who knew that thinking about one’s karma would bring such satisfying returns in such a short amount of time!

xx

Till Next Time Lovelies!